Just now I read a few blogs about how they are happy or dissappointed when they get straight a's in spm...It does made me think a lot..I know this post doesn't fit with my purpose of my blog but I just wanted to write..
I got 10 A+ for my spm and I was happy but...do you want to know what I really felt?after that..for a while I felt empty..blank..because for the whole 2 years getting straight A+ is my goal and I haven't really decided on my next goal..everyone is asking what offer are you taking but seriously I haven't receive any offer..My will to succeed was because I wanted to study overseas but suddenly it strucks me that 10 A+ doesn't promise you a scholarship...It's true that sometimes you are only doing this for someone else..for me it is for my parents my mum especially because my dad is too busy...I love my family.my mum she's very competitive around her friends..she wanted me to be the best but sometimes I am just tired..That's why I love entertainment so much...They don't know how much it has made me who I am now...they keep me sane because you know what knowing people with that same interest that doesn't care about how many A's u get in your spm..we just love to be together...Yes about losing friends that most said when they wanted to achieve...It does happens..I had a hard time with one of my bestfriend and a hard time because of my crush but at the end I still thank him because he actually helped me study in the evening but now I realized that he's maybe not for me..I got betrayed and backstabbed so many times during my spm year that my heart turned cold..I can't cry anymore sometimes I think I've forgotten how to cry..If you want to create friends and have all the fun let me tell you something they won't be there for you all the time and I am thankful that I have a sister..we fought a lot but at the end she is the bestest friend I've ever had..Being a braniac will make you have a hard time to find a boyfriend for a reason that I don't know...But above all I think I've lived my high school years to the fullest though I do regret I face trouble furing my last days in school..I balanced my school life with my social life...I studied when I wanted to and when I needed to...At school I'm not the clique but I was known as the brain so they think I'm a nerd with glasses but when I go out..I didn't wear glasses and fashion is my hobby...I go for vacation with my family 3/4 times per year so I don't believe that when you skip a week of school is the cause of you failing in spm..because it is not an overnight thing...I went to concerts,camps and skipped tuitions when I'm tired because to me what's the point of going to tuition when you are just counting what is the time to go home?you are just forcing yourself..Anything that doesn't come with a will won't succeed..I was not the brightest student during my elementary and lower form but then I have a goal..It keeps me going and I do work hard because I am not a genius.and lastly prayers...pray a lot to Allah..he can do anything that you can never imagine..I prayed everyday because he knows what you want but isn't it better if you asked him directly?...but I'm just telling you that getting straight A+ is not everything but it is something..don't lose yourself during your way to succeed in spm...You may feel great after getting good results but later you'll always find someone that is better than you..find something that you love and strive towards it..I joined lots of clubs and communities but always balance yourself..thankfully I have my sister who always gives me advice that sometimes I don't want to hear but I need...
